Lose count of your blessings

Decent People trying to help Hurt People

From

http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/released/view/

"Five years ago, FRONTLINE's groundbreaking film, The New Asylums, went deep inside the Ohio prison system as it struggled to provide care to thousands of mentally ill inmates. This year, FRONTLINE filmmakers Karen O'Connor and Miri Navaskyreturn to Ohio to tell the next chapter in this disturbing story: what happens to mentally ill offenders when they leave prison. The Released is an intimate look at the lives of the seriously mentally ill as they struggle to remain free."

I met Crazy

it wasn't me

I met Genius

It wasn't Me

I Met Honest 

I Felt Safe

I saw Time

It said

Stop Counting

Live

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Staying Alive prevents Laziness,

Mornin',

First I woke,

Then I thought.

Staying Alive prevents Laziness

Rhetoric Versus Reality,

Sometimes fate is Natural progression

Choice is what you do about it

Trauma is inevitable 

What type will be yours to discover

To Live Through

These thoughts keep recycling

Making me think I'm Alone

But the truth is

Enough have lived

 are living

will Live

who will know the same moment

 at a different time

 different place

But speak a different language

Pain Hurts with a scream

covered in tears

and can be sensed by any organism

This is common to all life

Then I Read.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

You are reading from the book Touchstones

I drink not from mere joy in wine nor to scoff at faith - no, only to forget myself for a moment, that only do I want of intoxication, that alone. 

  —Omar Khayyam

What has been our drug of choice? It may be alcohol. It may be sugar or gambling or dependent relationships. Some men have used anger, sex, sports, or the accumulation of money. Growing in this program, we learn there is a great brotherhood among us. Our problems have not been only with a certain substance or a given behavior. We have been seduced and trapped by a ritual of forgetting ourselves. If we hadn't found one way, we may have found another. In giving one up, we often found ourselves drawn to a new substitute.

Now we are learning to accept ourselves and to forget ourselves in healthier ways. We all need to move beyond the bounds of an oppressive ego. In our old style, we could not learn healthy releases because we were hooked on unhealthy ones. Now we are learning meditation, making friends, helping others, and letting go as ways to forget ourselves.

I pray for help today in staying away from self-destructive intoxications so I am able to learn healthy releases.

From Touchstones: A Book of Daily Meditations for Men ©1986, 1991 by Hazelden Foundation. All rights reserved. No portion of this publication may be reproduced in any manner without the written permission of the publisher.

Then I Shared with you,

             while listening to well wishing,

Awaken to  your Great Day,

Sincerely,

Peter Lott Heppner

P.S. Then I explored some more

P.S.2 & $ome More

P.S. 3 'nd More

Measuring Tough Talkers

A friend  clichéd 

 Bullies are Cowards,

 Cowards are Bullies

 the epiphany 

grows daily

disinforms

misinforms

boasts

Talks Tough

Time to Measure

From Yesterday's MSNBC & Keith Olberman of Countdown

http://www.alternet.org/blogs/mediaculture/138338/olbermann_calls_hannity's_bluff:_$1000_for_every_second_of_waterboarding/

Visit msnbc.com for Breaking News, World News, and News about the Economy

They're Everywhere,

 They're Everywhere,

A Friends' Grandfather

Assured

"I'm not Paranoid

I know I'm being Watched"

PeterLott Heppner 

Hindsight Forethought

Mornin',

Yesterday for me was 22 years ago.

After 9 years on the CBOE as a book clerk

I began work as an Arb Clerk for a market maker firm.

 

Paul Volker Head of the Fed

announced his retirement,

 the Dow dropped 30 points

I sold  7 SPU's at the market instead of 1.

It was a $17,000 error 

which was greater than my projected salary for 1 year

I was given 1 weeks severance after 1 week of Arbing.

My salaried life was over

and  I 've been bouncing around ever since.  

From

 Charlie Rose 

October 16, 2006

via

 Google Video

Segment 1: Paul Volcker, former Chairman of the Federal Reserve discusses his new book, "Good Intentions Corrupted: The Oil for Food Scandal and the Threat to the U.N." Segment 2: We conclude with Nandan Nilekani, CEO of Infosys.«

From Columbia University in New York, NY

: Economic Recovery Advisory Board Chairman Paul Volcker

 Speaks (Bloomberg News)

February 20, 2009

via You Tube

Reflections

Peter Lott Heppner

P.S.1933or 2009 (part I) http://www.pbs.org/moyers/journal/04242009/watch.html

PS. 1933 or 2009 (part II) http://www.pbs.org/moyers/journal/04242009/watch2.html

An adventure to smile again

 An adventure to Smile again

Fashion Model Renee Airya Reuzenaar

http://www.documentary.org/content/video/418

Possibilities Galore,

What are yours?

Peter Lott Heppner

Enabling Dreams of Others

This is how I started my day,

listening to someone

who has been there

and is no longer here

So I tried to take notes

• Achieving Childhood Dreams
  
• Climbimg over Brickwalls
  
• Meet Smart People
• Pissing Matches
• Good Way to say "I don't Know"
• "No Rule!"
• Become a Professor
• Keep Raising Your Own Bar
• Share
• Hello.World
• ?♫♪♫♪♫...¿!!
• Ctrl Alt Delete
• Brilliant Ad Lib
• Pioneering
• Hand it to off to someone better
• Give Credit Where Credit is Due
• Edutainment
• ETC Campus
• Peer Feedback Spread Sheet
• Bar Chart Ignorance
• Self Reflective
• Labor Intensive
• Tommy one at a Time
• Tommy Ten at A TIME
• Infinitely Scaled
• Head Fake
• Having Fun Learning Something Hard
• Grand Vision
• Helping Others
• 
  
• How people perceive you will limit you

• What you say is not as important as what you do

  Why are we here?

  Know the Moment

  I will fix this

  Earnest People are Long Term

  Hip People are not

  Everybody has a good side

  
  

• Now in his own Words

Carnegie Mellon Professor Randy Pausch (Oct. 23, 1960 - July 25, 2008)

 his last lecture at the university Sept. 18, 2007,

 before a packed McConomy Auditorium

. , "Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams," 

 lessons learned

  advice to students 

 how to achieve their own career

 and

 personal goals.

 For more, visit www.cmu.edu/randyslecture.

I'm going to Loop this and Re-Listen

Enjoy, 

Peter Lott Heppner

P.S. Earth Day Like Easter Like Christmas is Everyday

P.S 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVu9eawb1QY

P.S. 3 http://www.last.fm/listen/artist/Eric%2BJohnson/similarartists

P.S. 4 To Our Health

Todd Stern serves as Special Envoy for Climate Change. 

He speaks about the "Focus the Nation" Clean Energy Town Halls 

and 

the Obama Administration's climate policy.

After his Thank You, Go To

http://blogs.state.gov/index.php/entires/climate_change_act_now/

Anonymous Good

From a bulk

 e-mail

An Old Farmer's Advice:

* Your fences need to be horse-high, pig-tight and bull-strong.

* Keep skunks, bankers and lawyers at a distance.

* Life is simpler when you plow around the stump.

* A bumble bee is considerably faster than a John Deere tractor.

* Words that soak into your ears are whispered...not yelled.

* Meanness don't jes' happen overnight.

* Forgive your enemies.  It messes up their heads.

* Do not corner something that you know is meaner than you.

* It don't take a very big person to carry a grudge.

* You cannot unsay a cruel word.

* Every path has a few puddles.

* When you wallow with pigs, expect to get dirty.

* The best sermons are lived, not preached.

* Most of the stuff people worry about ain't never gonna happen, anyway.

* Don't judge folks by their relatives, after all they didn't get to pick 'em.

* Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

* Live a good, honorable life.  Then when you get older and think back, you'll enjoy it a second time.

* Don't interfere with somethin' that ain't botherin' you none.

* Timing has a lot to do with the outcome of a rain dance.

* If you find yourself in a hole, the first thing to do is stop diggin'.

* Sometimes you get, and sometimes you get got.

* The biggest troublemaker you'll probably ever have to deal with, watches you from the mirror every mornin'.

* Good judgment comes from experience, and a lotta that comes from bad judgment.

* Lettin' the cat outta the bag is a whole lot easier than puttin' it back in.

* If you get to thinkin' you're a person of some influence, try orderin' somebody else's dog around.

* Live simply.  Love generously.  Care deeply.  Speak kindly. Leave the rest to God.

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Pass it On

Peter Lott Heppner 

Salve

How my day end's

From 

TED Talks

 FEB 2001

UCLA Coach John Wooden

Speaks

about the differences between

 Winning and Success 

From 

TED Talks

FEB 2003

Harvard College

 Psychology Professor Steven Pinker

Dispels,

Dispenses,

Disputes,

Similarities

&

Congenial Notions

of/in

 Cognitive Science 

  

Sweet Dreams

PeterLott Heppner

 

Today's Start

http://www.hazelden.org/web/public/thought.view

http://www.hazelden.org/web/public/thought.view?catId=1902

http://www.hazelden.org/web/public/thought.view?catId=1901

http://greatday.com/

http://wonderofitall.com/

Then my mail 

&

THE "News"

Peter Lott Heppner 

Internal Quest for Encouragement

Sunday, April 19, 2009

You are reading from the book Touchstones

Some of us, observing that ideals are rarely achieved, proceed to the error of considering them worthless. Such an error is greatly harmful. True North cannot be reached either, since it is an abstraction, but it is of enormous importance, as all the world's travelers can attest.

  —Steve Allen

How many of us, seeing others who failed to live fully by their ideals, cried, "Hypocrite!" Perhaps we even pointed to others' shortcomings to excuse our own. Now, in this program, we may be tempted to swing like a pendulum to the other extreme. We may hold to our values and principles so tightly that we are perfectionistic.

The idea that True North cannot ever be reached is very useful. If we don't achieve True North, even though we establish it as our standard, we will generally be heading in the right direction. Although we never perfectly achieve our ideals, they remain our standards today for orienting our lives.

I do accept standards for my life. I will not beat on myself for my imperfections.

From Touchstones: A Book of Daily Meditations for Men ©1986, 1991 by Hazelden Foundation. All rights reserved. No portion of this publication may be reproduced in any manner without the written permission of the publisher.

____________________________________________________________________

Private Terrorist

Personal

 Internal

Mental

Brutal

Ceaseless

Sleepless

PrivateTerrorism

How will I treat me Today?

Who says?

Why?

A lousy way to stay busy!

Dontchya think!

Maybe!

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Hereditary Cancer Curiousity

 

My  friend John,an OB GYN gave me this attached  Family History Questionnaire for Common Hereditary Cancer Syndromes because he thought it would help.  

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Myriad identifies genes, related proteins and biological pathways, and then uses this information to predict a person's risks of developing specific cancers. Myriad's genetic testing helps people and their doctors work together to more effectively prevent and fight cancer."

Myriad Genetic Laboratories, Inc.
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As our Ancestor Archive grows.  Health and lifestyles will invariably be important for our descendants records.

This is just a piece of paper for our own curiousity and enlightenment. It is just a tool we can add to our self understanding of our own genetic constitution.

You can of course follow your inquiry on-line  

 http://www.myriadtests.com/home.htm

Share what you learn,

Do as you wish,

Chit with ya' whenever,

Peter Lott Heppner 

Weekly Address: Efficiency and Innovation

With the process of going through the budget line by line in full swing, the President uses his Weekly Address to give some examples, big and small, of how the Administration is working to cut costs and eliminate waste. The President also announces two new key appointments, Jeffrey Zients as Chief Performance Officer and Aneesh Chopra as Chief Technology Officer, who will be invaluable in streamlining the way government functions through efficiency and innovation.

True That,

Peter Lott Heppner 

4 decades

Observations on the Science of Finance in the Practice of Finance

Robert C. Merton Ph.D. '70

March 5, 2009

If, 4 + a = 5

then a=1

If the Dow closes down 777

 and later 411

then,

 because

 Base e Mathematics

 is integrated into

 Economics,

Engineering

 and

 Software

 Could underlying securities be just another integer?

Capitalized by Theoretical Values?

Can Cyber Constructs Supercede Gold Standard, Petrol dollar, Fractional Reserve based economies, thereby shifting a Nations Wealth Deftly into (a) private account(s)?

Peter Lott Heppner

P.S. That's a lot of zero's somewhere.

Just US or Socioconsciensability

 Truth  told boldly

 as 

  Lies  spoken  brazenly

evens

 The playing field  

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Somali Coast Guard

George Washington, Thomas Jefferson, Benjamin Franklin were colonists called revolutionaries, but over time they have been redeemed with esteem as Founding Fathers.

There are many words bandied which clarify ones' choice of view. These examples are only a few. Feel Free to See More & add to The List.

• Freedom Fighter or Terrorist
  
• Obstructionist or Dissenter
  
• Explorer or Opportunist
  
• Settler or Invader
  
• Expert or Pundit
  
• Coast Guard or Pirate
  

On this one they are Coast Guards, they are Environmentalists, who are bearing witness to  a variety of unhealthy forms of living resulting  from exploitation and contamination during the past 30 years along the Northeast Coast of Africa. The damage from over fishing and radioactive toxic dumping will deleteriously impact the region for the lifetime of uranium.  These facts must be  responsibly responded to for organisms yet to be.  

Here is K'naan.

Please remember you are making your own history now and someone you might never know is depending on you. It is a small world.

Chit with ya',

Peter Lott Heppner

P.S.

• Taxes or Paying Forward 
  
• Socioconscienability or Progress
  
• Stubborn or Perseverant
• Propoganda or Business Plan
• Confused or Aware
• Tea bagging or Tea bagging

Fifth Cycle

Finished Fifth 5 day Temodar cycle this morning

No worse for wear

• Intoxicated
  
• Achey 
  
• Fatigued
  

Just like to sleep and eat,

Am lucky to do this

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Coincidence?

Monday, April 13, 2009

You are reading from the book Today's Gift

Nobody can be in good health if he does not have all the time fresh air, sunshine, and good water.

  —Chief Flying Hawk

"Before this part of the world was colonized by Europeans, native Americans thrived here, living in wigwams and teepees, spending their time in the fresh air and sun, and drinking pure, fresh water from springs, streams, and rivers. They lived long, healthy lives and almost never were sick--precisely because they knew how important the natural elements were.

When we feel depressed or nervous, nature is a good listener. We can take a walk in the sun, listen to the small birds, or twigs cracking under our feet, or simply the sound of our shoes on the pavement. We don't need to live in teepees to follow the Indians' example today. But getting out in the sunshine and fresh air every day, even on really cold days, rejuvenates us. Sunlight is healing, fresh air cleanses our lungs and brings more oxygen to the blood and brain. When we think enough of ourselves to take a walk when we need it, even that small amount of self-consideration is also healing.

Have I given myself time to live outside today?

From Today's Gift: Daily Meditations for Families ©1985, 1991 by Hazelden Foundation. All rights reserved. Printed in the United States of America. No portion of this publication may be reproduced in any manner without the written permission of the publisher."

Coincidence? Nope it's My Path reminding me once again, that while craziness seems to be working to mobilize The FOX Nation of America to become a satelite of  FOX World,  Earth is still my home where  First Peoples Wisdom Lives.

Today is also Cubs Opener.

See ya',

Peter Lott Heppner

P.S. Stay Inspired

http://www.guideposts.com/health-wellness